I snoozed my 4:50am alarm and finally woke up at 5:05am. I was awake, but stayed in bed… laying there having the inner battle of whether or not I should get up and go for a run. I had a huge list of reasons why I should skip my run and just stay in bed and only one reason to go and run. After a 15 minute battle in my head, I rolled out of bed. What was the reason that got me out of bed? Because my goal was to go for 3 runs this week. I said I would … so I had to.
It wasn’t easy and I was cursing to myself as I packed my gym bag and my lunch bag, my laptop bag and my purse. I got to the gym a little later than I had wanted but still made it for a 2 mile run. Original plan was to run for at least 3 miles but every time I looked at the time, I felt more strapped for time and knew if I ran for 3 miles, I’d be rushing to get ready and into the office before 7:30am. I had already cursed on my way to the gym, I was hoping to get ready for work at a more relaxed pace. I made it into work on time, booted up my laptop and headed down to the cafeteria to pick up breakfast.
Looking back at my morning, I really should have tried harder to be in a happier mood because I think it really affected my run. It just wasn’t fun and I wasn’t feeling motivated, focused or strong. Lugging a few bags of workout gear, work-related stuff and lunch may turn out to be a regular occurrence for me. And I need to just suck it up buttercup! It is what it is and I should choose to not think negatively about it.
What’s even worse, after the cursing and the lugging.. I really should have run at least 3 miles. The effort of getting there should have motivated me to make it to my run goal. Lesson learned.